Pray

Well I've certainly have received my fair share of bad news recently. Some of it is beyond my control and some of it is due to me not taking care of my responsibilities like I should have been. Today sucked. And I'm almost positive that the upcoming days are going to continue to suck if I don't figure out what I need to do. I need help.

Life is full of misery, loneliness, and suffering - and it's all over much too soon.

- Woody Allen

Anyone who knows me, knows that I'm not the super-religious type. I have faith in a higher power, but it's been more than a few years since I've prayed or "had a conversation" with the Big Guy upstairs. I feel like I need to talk to him, but I have no idea where to start. There are so many things I want to say. So many things I need to thank him for. But I also need to ask for strength to work harder to achieve my goals. I pray for the knowledge to determine what to hold on to and what to let go of. I pray for the ability to be more patient and have more balance to REALLY get things in order. But first things first, I need the strength to get out of bed tomorrow.

After all, tomorrow is another day.

- Gone With the Wind

Too Busy to Live

There's no doubt about it: I'm a busy bitch. This is mostly due to my line of work...retail is a bitch, especially when you're in management. It seems like my work ethic is different than most people that I know because I find myself busting my ass and being completely exhausted from just a typical day at work. I need a change.

I've missed out on opportunities to hang with friends, enjoying quality time with myself, and just downright living because I'm either working or being too tired to do anything else when I'm not working. Not to also mention that if I'm not tired, nothing in this damn city stays open past 9pm except for clubs. Either way, something has to change.

2010 has been about work, work, work for me. I hope that there will be a little time for play in 2011. I don't expect the work load to get any lighter. In fact, I'm hoping that I would have more "work" opportunities in my day job as well as other projects. However, I do plan on working out my work-life balance. "Sharpening the Saw," if you will. I want to see my friends more, old and new. I want to have a life...and not be "too busy" to live. As busy as I am, I think I may have met my match...but that's another story. For my situation, it's going to take a lot of effort on my part, and a lot of understanding on my friends' part, but I'm ready.

After all....I'll sleep when I'm dead.